You’ve heard of the game called twenty questions. Here are your twenty questions to yourself. These following questions will help to give you a no-BS wake-up call. Take a moment before answering so that you give yourself the opportunity to reflect and choose your answer instead of your usual knee-jerk, autopilot answer. Take a deep slow inhalation before answering and try to feel yourself calming. Do that several times if you need to. Answer with no BS. The time to get real is now.

Speak your answers out loud and then write them down. Hear yourself. Really hear yourself.

  1. What is my viewpoint about my current mental position regarding continuing to use drugs? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  2. Is my viewpoint healthy and strong? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  3. If not healthy and strong, do I believe I can change my viewpoint? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  4. How badly do I want to recover? ( pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  5. What is more important than recovery? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  6. What might keep me from succeeding? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  7. What are the benefits to being in recovery? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  8. What are the benefits to continue using? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  9. Are there steps I can take to create a plan to keep me from a slip or a relapse? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  10. Which people do you see everyday that could/would help you avoid relapse? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  11. What are signs to tempt you to use? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  12. Who are the people that would tempt you to use? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer) 13. Will you start and keep a journal as your personal detective as described in chapter 30? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  13. Are there inevitable exposures to triggers in your daily life? If so, what can you do to protect yourself? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  14. Who are you when you are using, and who are you when you are not using? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  15. Are you willing to tell your using friends goodbye? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer) 17. Can you start to take better care of yourself by eating nutritionally; cutting back on caffeine, sugar, anything white; and cutting back on smoking? Can you add in some exercise, get enough sleep, and learn to relax at will? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  16. Will you go to a meeting every day for ninety days? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer) 19. Will you pay attention to how you think, what you think, and practice changing your thinking if need be? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)
  17. Will you commit and recommit every single day to take personal responsibility for your recovery and state that you will, out loud, to someone every day? (pause, deep breath, and no BS answer)

Take the time to think about the answers you have given. If you truly have answered with no bullshit, you will have compiled a good idea of readiness or not.

Maybe you are not ready. Maybe you have not had enough. Maybe you think you can put off recovery for another time. Ask yourself, if not now, when? Today is the easiest day you have. Using more, using longer does not make this easier. In actuality, it isn’t easy on any day.

But no day is easier than today.

You are scared. I know. Scared to stop, scared to keep using. You know you have to stop, want to stop, need to stop. Take another very deep, slow inhalation, and be brave. Christopher Robin told Winnie the Pooh, “You are smarter than you think and braver than you know.

Promise me you will always remember that.”

Promise yourself. Be brave.